I’ve been worried sick by different relationships in the
past couple of days.
Some people in my life seemed like they were no longer there.
Relationships seemed to have cooled off.
My messages were not returned and every appointment seemed impossible
to meet.
My mind has been whirling with all kinds of concerns. I kept
running every conversation through my mind to find where I may have made a
mistake.
Did I do something? Was it something I said?
Several thoughts about the situation came and went in my
mind. These thoughts flowed through my mind morning, noon and night. I woke up,
lived through the day and went to bed with them.
This morning the Holy Spirit stopped me in my tracks with a
question – “Why do you worry so much about your relationship with man who
cannot determine the course of your life even with their best intentions? Why
do you worry so much about man and leave your relationship with the Father
unattended? You have not spoken to Him who holds your future in His hands nor
sought His face and yet you wonder that your messages to a human remained
unreturned?”
I had begun a Bible-in-a-year study and I had missed several
days and I wasn’t really worried about it. Somewhere
in my mind the thought was “I will get to it” and the days were piling up. I wasn’t
worrying about getting to know Him better through His word but I was here
dissecting every piece of communication and every moment of interaction with
someone I felt was valuable to me. He who gave His all for me, just wanted a
little of my time and I wasn’t bothered about giving Him any. Rather, I was
hungering for this person’s call, text or message.
When last did I worry that I hadn’t spoken to ‘Him who first
loved me’?
When last did I plan to spend time with Him? When last did I
seek out his thought on that decision I am planning to make? When last did I worry
about pleasing Him? When last did I comb through my day to make sure that I did
not offend Him? When last did I put Him
first?
My foolishness is
becoming very obvious and I wonder how many of us become encumbered by our
relationships with humans and never give a thought to our relationship with our
Loving Father.
How foolish I have been to worry about man who cannot turn
God’s heart to me instead of ensuring that I was pleasing the God who has every
man’s heart in His hand.
Am hoping I will live more wisely, learning to put my time
and thoughts on Him instead of worrying about what man thinks, says or does.
