Wednesday, December 14, 2016

Everything you cost me

Loving kisses
Warm caresses
Affectionate looks
Companionable silence
Enjoyable meals
Blissful pregnancies
Pleasant labour
Joyous births
Contented motherhood
Peaceful days
Sweet sleep
Happy times
Lovely memories
My love
My heart
My past
My dreams
My passions
My health
My youth
My joys
My smile
My confidence
My Self
Freedom to be
Freedom to live
You cost me too much



Wednesday, November 30, 2016

7 Songs To Help You Reach Your Happily Ever After

In fairytales the couple always lives happily ever after and this is every bride and groom’s dream.
As you decide your colour scheme, the best venue, the right guest list, the perfect dress, the most romantic honeymoon destination, there is only one thing on your mind – setting the perfect foundation for a marriage where you’ll live happily ever after.
You believe that you’ll be together forever and this is what everyone who loves you, wishes for you.
Your dream for happily ever after with your spouse can become your reality if you commit to investing yourself in your marriage. Tips to help you fortify your union against the tests of time can be found even from the most unexpected sources. An example is music. When you least expect it, some lyrics just jump out of the blue to inspire you. Here are some song samples to help you on your way to happily ever after.
1.     "Like You'll Never See Me Again" by Alicia Keys
   "I don't wanna forget the present is a gift
    And I don't wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me
    ... Promise that you'll love me
    Love me like you'll never see me again"     
A relationship never becomes too old for affection, so never take each other for granted. Know that your being together is a gift, too precious to be treated with apathy.
2.    "Stay With You" by John Legend  
"And there will be heartaches and pains, yes it will
But through it all, we will remain

... And in the end I know that we'll find

Love so beautiful and divine
We'll be lovers for the lifetime, yeah
And I'll stay with you"

On those days of pain and hurt, focus on your happily ever after. Have and stick to only one plan – to remain committed through every challenge and celebration. 
3.     "Honey, I'm Good" by Andy Grammer
       
"I could have another but I probably should not
I've got somebody at home, and if I stay I might not leave alone

No, honey I'm good, I could have another but I probably should not

I've gotta bid you adieu and to another I will stay true"
https://goo.gl/EDkQiE
Stay true to your vows. Don’t cheat on your spouse. The fact is temptations are everywhere, but the truth is that you can determinedly refuse to fall into them. Uphold your promise to have only each other for the rest of your lives.

4.       "Stand by You" by Rachel Platten
"And love, if your wings are broken
Borrow mine so yours can open too
'Cause I'm gonna stand by you
Even if we're breaking down, we can find a way to break through
Even if we can't find heaven, I'll walk through hell with you
Love, you're not alone, 'cause I'm gonna stand by you"
https://goo.gl/3jQ7N8
Hold each other up when life tries to beat you down. WE (together) is stronger than You or Me (alone).

5.     “Broken Together” by Casting Crowns

Maybe you and I were never meant to be complete

Could we just be broken together

If you can bring your shattered dreams and I'll bring mine

Could healing still be spoken and save us

The only way we'll last forever is broken together

https://goo.gl/EAOsA0
 Alone, none of you is perfect but together you are a perfect couple. Acknowledge your  imperfections but be confident that together, your imperfect edges align perfectly. 

6.      “Ain't Too Proud To Beg” by The Temptations
"I'm not ashamed to come and plead to you baby

If pleadin' keeps you from walkin' out that door
Ain't too proud to beg, you know it sweet darlin'

Please don't leave me girl, don't you go

Ain't to proud to plead, baby, baby"

Don’t ever be too proud to say sorry. Pride has been the nemesis of many marriages, leaving shattered dreams, fragmented lives and broken homes in its wake. It is better to beg for peace and harmony than to lose your chance for happily ever after.
7.    “My Best Friend” by Tim McGraw
    
"And I don't know where I'd be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You're my best friend"
 18 years of marriage has taught me that when you express your need for your spouse, your bond of intimacy is strengthened . Your spouse is your partner for life and to succeed in life, you need each other. Don’t be afraid to express your need.

Do the needful to reach your happily ever after. Let the music play! 








Saturday, July 9, 2016

THE SILENCE OF BLACK AFRICAN IMMIGRANTS

On July 5th, Alton Sterling was ‘executed’ (6 gunshots) by Police after being man-handled by them. His last words were “Please don't shoot me!” They said he had a long rap sheet and was carrying a gun on him. However, they didn't tell us he was committing any crime at the time he was killed.
On July 6th, Philando Castile was killed (5 gunshots) in front of his girlfriend and her 4-year old daughter. Philando had no Police record and was a good and upstanding citizen, a role model to many children. He even worked in a school. He also, was not committing any crime at the time he was killed.
They were not killed in self defense. In fact, they were both defenseless and in no position to harm the officers and yet they got killed.
114 Black men have been killed in the United States in the first 186 days of this year.
Many people are silent about the killings of Blacks and the injustice we suffer, but there is no silence as deafening as the one from the Black African immigrant community.
The time has come for our community organizations to be known for more than just social events.
The time has come for our community to be much more than a group of people from different African countries.
The time has come for our community organizations to be driven by a need for positive impact.
We can start by acknowledging the struggles of those who spilt their blood to pave the way for the 'freedom’ that we enjoy. We should not be missing at Black History and Emancipation Day events. 
We can start by helping new Black African immigrants to successfully navigate this terrain that we seem to have mastered.
Know that all Blacks are Black. A drop of Black blood in you makes you Black.
Know that the success of your Black neighbour is a success for all Blacks and their failure is ours as well.
Know that as long as racism continues to affect your Black brother, your ‘success’ will not protect you.
When a Black brother is killed in the US, we should shout out for justice too. That death could have been one of yours. That son that you worked so hard to train could have been the victim. Don't wait till it strikes you directly before speaking out.
When a brother is killed in the US that is an opportunity for us to come together as a community and make our voices be heard.
This is the time for our Black African Immigrant community to look beyond every pettiness and see that we are endangered species.
This is the time for us to shirk silence and embrace community engagement, advocacy and collaboration.
In the US, they kill our bodies but here in Canada, they kill our Spirits.
Our children are targeted in their schools and they are neither protected nor can they protect themselves. Instead, the educationists become enablers to the perpetrators of the injustice against them.
80% of Black families that become involved with the CAS are through the schools.
Black children are 5 times over-represented in the Foster Care system.
Black people are 4 times over-represented in the criminal justice system.
Unemployment is also high in our community.
These are issues that we should be addressing and there will be no change until we begin to do something.
In North America, we are neither African nor African-American, we are all BLACK.  Every African descendant in North America is directly affected when something happens to any single Black in North America.
If we Black African Immigrants don't speak out against the injustice our African-American brethren are experiencing, why should we complain when others don’t?



THE SILENCE OF BLACK AFRICAN IMMIGRANTS

On July 5th, Alton Sterling was ‘executed’ (6 gunshots) by Police after being man-handled by them. His last words were “Please don't shoot me!” They said he had a long rap sheet and was carrying a gun on him. However, they didn't tell us he was committing any crime at the time he was killed.
On July 6th, Philando Castile was killed (5 gunshots) in front of his girlfriend and her 4-year old daughter. Philando had no Police record and was a good and upstanding citizen, a role model to many children. He even worked in a school. He also, was not committing any crime at the time he was killed.
They were not killed in self defense. In fact, they were both defenseless and in no position to harm the officers and yet they got killed.
114 Black men have been killed in the United States in the first 186 days of this year.
Many people are silent about the killings of Blacks and the injustice we suffer, but there is no silence as deafening as the one from the Black African immigrant community.
The time has come for our community organizations to be known for more than just social events.
The time has come for our community to be much more than a group of people from different African countries.
The time has come for our community organizations to be driven by a need for positive impact.
We can start by acknowledging the struggles of those who spilt their blood to pave the way for the 'freedom’ that we enjoy. We should not be missing at Black History and Emancipation Day events. 
We can start by helping new Black African immigrants to successfully navigate this terrain that we seem to have mastered.
Know that all Blacks are Black. A drop of Black blood in you makes you Black.
Know that the success of your Black neighbour is a success for all Blacks and their failure is ours as well.
Know that as long as racism continues to affect your Black brother, your ‘success’ will not protect you.
When a Black brother is killed in the US, we should shout out for justice too. That death could have been one of yours. That son that you worked so hard to train could have been the victim. Don't wait till it strikes you directly before speaking out.
When a brother is killed in the US that is an opportunity for us to come together as a community and make our voices be heard.
This is the time for our Black African Immigrant community to look beyond every pettiness and see that we are endangered species.
This is the time for us to shirk silence and embrace community engagement, advocacy and collaboration.
In the US, they kill our bodies but here in Canada, they kill our Spirits.
Our children are targeted in their schools and they are neither protected nor can they protect themselves. Instead, the educationists become enablers to the perpetrators of the injustice against them.
80% of Black families that become involved with the CAS are through the schools.
Black children are 5 times over-represented in the Foster Care system.
Black people are 4 times over-represented in the criminal justice system.
Unemployment is also high in our community.
These are issues that we should be addressing and there will be no change until we begin to do something.
In North America, we are neither African nor African-American, we are all BLACK.  Every African descendant in North America is directly affected when something happens to any single Black in North America.
If we Black African Immigrants don't speak out against the injustice our African-American brethren are experiencing, why should we complain when others don’t?



Thursday, July 7, 2016

MEDICATED FOR THE MONEY

Medicated, dull senses, lethargic, weight gain
I look at myself and I don’t like how I look
Now I need higher doses
I can’t go on like this anymore
So I stop taking them
I’ve become a tyrant, impatient, aggressive and very sad
What is going on?! I ask
Ohhh…it’s the medication!
What do I do…?
Am stuck in the cycle? Like a hamster on a wheel
They’ve got me where they want me
But why?!...
If they know, why did they give me this?
It’s all about the money, my dear
Money for the Doctor and for the Pharma Giants
Who really cares about your well-being?

"Give it to them and we’ve got a lifetime moneymaker" they say

Tuesday, June 28, 2016

DON'T BLAME YOU FOR THEIR REJECTION

There is nothing more devastating than rejection because rejection shatters dreams and hopes.
It causes you to stagger on your path. It makes you doubt yourself.
If suddenly your life seems like a catalogue of rejections, you begin to flounder.
Your once strong disposition and belief in your vision crumbles under the weight of despair.
To be rejected by those whom you love is a pain incomparable to none other.
Your safe space suddenly turns to your pain place.
You become scared. Scared to live, scared to love and even scared to laugh.
Could it be me? You ask. What did I do? What did I say? What did they hear about me?
Innumerable questions and a gamut of scenarios spin around in your head.
The truth is, there are no answers to the questions. Even if you asked them directly, their answer would probably be a lie.
Many times those who reject you do not need any prompts. You didn’t cause it. It’s not your fault. You are good enough to be loved. You are worth standing by.
If you feel that your mistakes have given them a good excuse, know that your value is not diminished by your mistakes.
Look at it this way. I went to the bank and for the first time since I got to Canada, I received a $100 bill in the cash I withdrew. “$100 bill!” I exclaimed in my mind.
I kept it inside my wallet and brought it out from time to time to admire. I spent every other lesser bill I had but didn’t want to spend my $100 bill.
Last night I looked inside my wallet and I couldn’t find my $100 bill. I frantically searched everywhere but didn’t find it.
This morning I decided to go through all the garbage cans in the house. I didn’t find it.
I then went to the big garbage can outside and there in a mix of rotten fruit peels, tomatoes and other waste, I saw my precious $100 bill. It was all messed up but I rinsed it off and let it dry.
Let me ask you this question? Did my $100 bill become less valuable because it had been in the garbage with rotten food?
No!
In the same way, you are not less valuable because of your mistakes. Your challenges have not diminished your value in any way. You are still enough for the world. You are enough in every way.
There is no excuse that makes you bad enough to be rejected.

Thursday, June 16, 2016

OUR DEATH HAS NOT BEEN IN VAIN

Someone thought they would hurt our world if they shot us up
They shot us but they could not shut us up
Someone chose our location because we were gay
Now, gay or straight, the world has united to keep hate at bay
An action fuelled by hate and now we are the late
Though he made us late, we’ve become love’s bait
Homophobia has been dealt a huge blow because we died
Now through our death, the value of diversity is now on the rise
Religious folk now have to face the truth about the love they profess
“We have much work to do in the area of inclusion” they confess
‘Love not Hate’ is now the chant over mountains and plains

For indeed our death has not been in vain

Orlando Shooting Victims Collage
http://www.advocate.com/crime/2016/6/15/city-orlando-begins-release-list-those-killed-pulse-nightclub-shooting

Sunday, May 8, 2016

We Have Authority

Yesterday, I believed I committed a faux pas so shame and blame flogged me relentlessly. 
I tried to stuff myself with a very rich cream cake but that didn't help. My last thoughts yesternight and my first thoughts this morning, were of this 'great' mistake.
I was so weighed down by it that I almost didn't go for my morning walk. I sluggishly dressed up determined to keep my commitment to myself and then commenced on my walk.
My start was quite slow because I was carrying this burden that made every step so hard for me, but I kept plodding along.
I normally play Gospel songs on my morning walks but this morning I didn't even feel like playing any song, so I began facebooking. 
I had promised myself that I will never go to Facebook on my morning walk, but this morning I did. After about 5 minutes of facebooking, I realized what I was doing and stopped.
5 minutes later, I remembered Andrae Crouch's "Through it all", googled it on my phone and began to play it. Surprisingly, that didn't really make me feel any better. Normally playing gospel songs precedes my time of prayer, praise and worship, but I couldn't even open my mouth this morning. 
I kept replaying the song until I had a 'Eureka' moment. 
I remembered a conversation I had with a friend yesterday about how the most difficult battle we fight with ourselves in our time of pain, is the one we fight within our minds. 
Joyce Meyer's book "The Battlefield of the mind" also came to my mind at this point and I asked myself what I was doing allowing the devil mess with my mind. I immediately rebuked him and told the spirits of shame and blame to be silent and go back to hell where they belonged.
After doing this, I continued to listen to the song and about 5 minutes later, I realized I no longer had the burden and yesterday's faux pas was no longer a sword of Damocles hanging over my head. I was free! 
This really got me thinking of the authority that we have as believers and how often we as Christians, go about in life assaulted and traumatized by the devil because we don't use it.
If we don't use our authority, the devil will continue to run roughshod over our lives and emotions and, we will never live victorious lives. We have to speak to him, commanding him in the name of Jesus and he has no choice but to obey.
As long as we're alive, the battle does not stop, so we have to be alert to recognize his wiles.
We must learn to be deliberate in our walk and determined to emerge victorious from every battle he brings our way.

Remember, the outcome was sealed on Calvary's Cross. Victory is already ours, we just need to lay hold of it by using our authority.

Tuesday, March 1, 2016

I AM WOMAN

Inside of pain, I find unbelievable gain
In the midst of chaos, I create a calm space
Out of scandals, I birth an honourable story
When I face challenges, I see opportunities for progress
Outside of love, I build a relationship with enduring affection
Who am I?
I am Woman

I nourish and I nurture
I am the life that brings forth lives
I am the hand that builds homes
I am the one that makes or breaks man
I am the womb that grows tiny zygotes into great men
Who am I?
I am Woman

You build a house, I make it home
You are the head of the family, I am the neck that guides our direction
Your arms protect our children, my hands groom them to rule the world
O’man, I was formed from your rib but I support your heart and hearth
Without me, there would be no form or beauty in our world
Who am I?
I am Woman

Thursday, February 11, 2016

Shame on You!!!


Shame on those of you
who hide under the guise of Christianity
to pick people's hearts and then take their sufferings
to your family and friends as dinner table conversation
Shame on those of you
who pretend to care so people can confide in you
only for you to spread their struggles
as dirty linens on the streets
Shame on those of you
who say you understand
but really blame the people who trust you with their challenges
for the difficulties that they face in life
Shame on those of you
who protect the perpetrators of injustices
and vilify the victims, shaming them and blaming them
because the perpetrators are your benefactors or close family members
Shame on those of you
that discuss the confidences shared with your friends
and betraying their trust because
you know they can't or won't fight back

Shame on all of you!!!

Monday, January 25, 2016

Keeping a Marriage Together

I recently read a condolence message to Celine Dion about her husband’s passing. As part of that Facebook post, the person wrote ... how you're able to keep a celebrity marriage for 21yrs is a marvel; obviously there was more to you …”.
That post got me thinking of the many times women have been counseled to improve themselves and their offerings to their husbands, even in an abusive situation, so that they can enjoy their marriage. Christians, of which am one, are wont to quote the scripture in Proverbs 14:1 that says “A wise woman builds her home, but a foolish woman tears it down with her own hands.” (NLT). They use this scripture to buttress their point that the success or failure of a woman’s marriage is her responsibility.
Because of this societal expectation, the woman struggles amidst all sort of abuse, most commonly emotional, to fulfill this huge responsibility that has been thrust upon her shoulders. Many times, she fails miserably, because she is not omnipotent and one person cannot do the work of two.
Marriages, whether celebrity or not, work when the couple are committed to their relationship. It works when they value each other and put one another first. There is no place for selfishness in marriage, only selflessness.
The School of Thought that burdens a woman with the sole responsibility of making her marriage work seems to have forgotten that age-long saying that “You can lead a horse  to water, but you can't make it drink.” For us Bible Thompers, as my dear friend calls us, what will be our answer to the question in Amos 3:3,Can two people walk together without agreeing on the direction?” (NLT)
Marriage is a covenant and according to http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/, a covenant is 
  1. a usually formal, solemn, and binding agreement 
  2. a written agreement or promise usually under seal between two or more parties especially for the performance of some action
At the marriage ceremony, when each person says “I do”, they have agreed to live together in marriage. They have promised to love, comfort, honor and keep their spouse for better or worse, for richer or poorer, in sickness and health, and forsaking all others, be faithful only to them, for as long as they both shall live. This is a formal and binding agreement.
One respected Pastor tweeted this recently, “Marriage will test the strength of one's character. When marriage fails @ least one person did not have the strength of character #‎AmourDance”.
This is indeed the truth.
So, instead of blaming the woman for her marriage troubles when she seeks help, ask the man how he’s keeping his own part of the agreement.
The reason 85% of intimate partner abuse are women* is that even when people are aware, the man is mollycoddled whilst the woman is asked to make all the changes. When it gets to a point, the woman will begin to bottle up and in her frustration, she may unwittingly escalate the situation.
Men need to tell their fellow men, the truth. In fact, we all need to tell one another the truth.
Successful marriages are the result of two people committed to:
  1. staying together
  2. putting each other first and
  3. loving one another through life’s challenges

Monday, January 11, 2016

Testing Church Waters

I recently moved churches.
It was a hard decision but then I remembered that my last Home Church was decided on after several ‘tests’ with others, lots of prayer and soul searching. I only settled on a Church when my Spirit rested and I had peace in the place. 
As Christians, the Bible teaches us that those who are led by God’s Spirit are His sons and daughters. Sometimes we may even say our decisions were made by God’s leading but eventually realize that we may have been wrong, when we lose our peace and experience trouble all around us.
This is what made me understand that my decision to move Churches was not wrong.
Some people say that changing churches is spiritual prostitution but as far as I know, the Bible tells us that Jesus is the Way. The Bible did not tell us that our salvation is hinged on the Church we attend.
So many are so focused on what humans will say or think that they become deaf to what God has said and is still saying. As followers of Christ, we must be courageous enough to follow God and not man because we will end up living with the consequences of our decisions, whether we did it to please people or we made them to please God.
I believe there are 4 things we can check to confirm where God is leading us as regards Church Membership.
1.       Your loyalty to leadership
You cannot be a member of a congregation and despise your leadership.
As soon as you begin to despise your Pastor, their words and ways, you need to prayerfully relocate because your being there is just a waste of time for you. If you give your time and even honour to your leadership grudgingly, do not expect any blessing because The Bible tells us that God loves a cheerful giver.
You cannot receive any impartation from your Pastors when you do not value the anointing upon them. You cannot attract what you despise.
In my former Church, I met many people who had issues with leadership and some of them were leaders themselves. They badmouthed the Pastor and did not appreciate the honour bestowed upon them. They were deeply unhappy and yet they remained there. Some were quick to inform me that they were only there for a time and did not care whose horse was gored.
Each day, I wonder why people remain in a Church, of all places, where they are so hurt they cannot even be open enough to receive any blessing from the message.
Christianity is a faith-based walk and where your thoughts are tainted by hurt and pain, faith would be difficult to grow.
God’s gift makes rich and adds no sorrow, so once there is sorrow in the gift of fellowship, you have to take a second look, in case you just got dazed by the angel of light – Satan.
2.       Alignment of your Values
If your values do not align with the majority, you have to backtrack because you’ll be beating your head against a brick wall expecting them to change.
Change, is indeed possible but know that even God’s Word tells us that two cannot work together except they agree.
If your values do not align with that of church Leadership, then disagreement is inevitable and therefore, progress will be elusive. Be conscious that hurt will be your reward because you cannot come and overturn long standing traditions without the backing of those in authority.
3.       Too much Talk
Church is a place Christians go to refuel their spiritual vehicles so that they can effectively and efficiently navigate life’s terrain. It is a place where you take what you've received back to conquer your world. It is not a place where you go to get the victim mentality because the words are different from the actions.
If you attend a Church that leaves you with much to ‘talk’ about after the service, you need to rethink your membership. If you want to get a degree in GOSSIPING, Church should not be the place for it.
4.       Check Yourself
When all is said and done, we need to check ourselves also, to be sure that we are not the problem. We could become the problem when we join the ‘Talkers’ to badmouth the leadership and the Church’s methods. We become the problem, when we forget what the Bible says about love and start acting like stark unbelievers, judging and reacting. We become the problem, when we start disobeying God’s instructions because of what people have done or said to us. We become the problem when we begin to gallivant with the chickens, forgetting that we are Eagles.
A time comes in a Christian’s life, when they have to choose to live for God by absolutely following His written instructions and listening for His verbal instructions. That is the time when we do crazy things that people cannot understand, for God. It is a time when our lives are not concerned about what people say but are driven by what God says.

It is when we get to that point that we can truly enjoy being members of any Church.